As long as i can remember, i’ve always had trouble swallowing food. When i swallow a bite after chewing it it goes down my throat and i can feel it slowly stopping until it stops and i feel like my throat is slowly contracting and making me panic. I’ll have to drink water then swallow hard to make it go down. And if im too late to drink and force it down there are times where i choke and i’ll have to force myself to throw up because i can feel myself dying. I have to chew anything i eat for like at least 30 seconds until i wash it down with water… I take from 1.5 to 2 hours to finish a meal that anyone can eat in 10 minutes. Its impossible to eat at work, and in order to eat breakfast i have to wake up 2 hours before work which is frustrating… now let me tell you about whats really frustrating… eating out. Once everyone is done with their meal, im done. “Hey you havent touched your food?” “Yeah im just not hungry” even though im starving. I tell everyone im a slow eater because its easier than to try and tell them i can hardly swallow food. I never had any kind of pill when i get fever or anything because i know it wont go down… i just lay down and wait out the symptoms or get a shot if i find myself unable to bear the symptoms anymore.
i’m trying to eat four meals and be in a caloric surplus but its consuming my whole day i even get like 6 or 5 hours of sleep because the whole day i’m trying to fit in my meals and make time where i can sit down and focus on swallowing. The last doctor ive seen told me to live with it because all treatment aren’t worth and i may regress.
This is more of a rant to be honest… i feel my condition has no cure. I’m not looking for sympathy or words of comfort. I need your advise. What would you do if you were in my place. Should i drop the wishful thinking of bulking and be swole af like jordan one day ;p
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That doctor’s advice is incorrect.
You need to see a gastroenterologist and undergo an upper endoscopy and/or barium swallow. If that is normal, potentially esophageal manometry.
Hey Austin,
thank you for directing me
I’ll look up a gastroenterologist and hopefully see if i can get to see him very soon.
I’ll keep you updated once i see the specialist you recommended.
really appreciate you dropping by, thank you so much.
Keeping my word on updating you, after giving it a good thought and hearing what everyone has to say i’ve actually decided to postpone my visit to the gastroenterologist until i exhaust all my options. I’m not sure how my throat will be fixed but right now i feel that i might regret undergoing any kind of therapy especially if i would sustain side effects or things got worse so its mostly from this perspective that is holding me back. Until i feel like i’m cornered i’ll be ok with anything really because then i would have accepted that fact that there is nothing more i can do.
speaking of the adjustments that i would make is probably be honest with everyone and probably choose a diet that is literally easy to swallow such as shakes and stuff. Keeping it simple and trying to be positive.
I came across your post on insta where you mentioned you’ve been dealing with a lot of stress recently, because of this opportunity that i’ve just got to contact you i just want you to know that you’re actually doing great so definitely dont let this period that will definitely pass affect you.
Thank you for all the efforts you’re putting wether they are appreciated or goes unnoticed. I appreciate you Austin.
Seeing a gastroenterologist for a consultation does not mean you would have to undergo any immediate procedure or treatment intervention at that time. You should meet with them to understand their thought process, assessment, and what their recommendations are. They would be able to describe the pros and cons of any proposed treatment plan at the time of the consultation. Then, once you are more fully informed, you can take as much time as you want to decide whether to proceed with that plan. Based on your description I strongly recommend following through with a GI appointment, regardless of whether you ultimately pursue their recommended treatment.
And I appreciate the kind words.
Fair enough… i’ll see one.
I’m assuming the worst case scenario and acting on it… this isn’t the correct way of thinking. Its difficult to challenge your own mindset when you’re scared.
I’ll let you know how things goes once i see a GI doctor, though forgive me if i took long.
Until then 