Hi
I’m a 21M that has been training for strength and size for more than 3 years. I’ve been having some issues lately. I’m dealing with 0 appetite all day during this past month. I never had a huge appetite as an adult but I’ve always been hungry around meal time. But recently I having to force myself to eat but I’ve not been able to eat the quantity that I use too. I’m 188cm 88-89kg right now with around 84cm waist. I used to be around 93-94kg. So I have unintentionaly lost 5kg in a quite short period of time.
This is making me anxious because the last thing I want is to lose weight because I want to gain size and strength. I’m having 3 meals and been trying to drink half a liter of whole milk after each meal for calories. I know it’s dumb but I’m also forcing myself to drink coca cola between meals for the calories even though I don’t even like the taste. My meals most of the time consists of junk foods for the calories…
I always had trouble with anxiety (diagnosed with social anxiety at 16). For the record, I never had a girlfriend because of my shyness but lately I’m trying to get out of my confort zone and doing things I’m scared off. I approched a girl for the first time friday night, got her number and invited her to go to the gym with me next week. All those things makes me so anxious and stressed just thinking about it which is probably worsening my appetite even more. But I don’t know what to do because I’m scared to lose weight again.
In the gym, my strength is decreasing. I did deadlift 210kg now struggle with 200kg. Been able to squat 150kg for 5reps RPE 8 now only 140kg for 5reps RPE. Same for the bench, lost a little less than 10kg in the bar. I know you can gain strength and lose weight but I feel like my body can’t. Also I have no energy at the gym, I get tired pretty quickly.
Thanks for the help